I’m slowly realizing, that a charming personality, and and an eagerness to please are not the things that will get you what you want out of the world.

Doing things for others theoretically seems like it should get what you want in return.

But at the end of the day.  Doing things for others simply leaves you empty and alone, while they wallow about in their winnings.

To get what I want.  I think from the now on the main element will be a bitter self-hatred for everyone else involved.

Maybe I’m being callow and jaded in my young age, but all of these other things don’t seem to get me anywhere.

What the hell do I want anyway?